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Ups and downs and catching up

Sorry it’s been a couple of weeks since I last posted. Things have been pretty busy around here! Last week’s weigh in saw me drop 1.1kg. I was thrilled! This week the drop was 400g. That may not sound like much but when you consider I had 5 days worth of food/ alcohol events during the last week it’s a Christmas in July Miracle! What’s even better is that the 400g brings me to over 10kg lost this round which was my goal 🙂 No red flags planned this week so hoping for an even better result (as soon as I kick this pesky virus and can train properly again!)

One of my red flag events last week was a singles cocktail function. I signed up to attend whilst on a runners high after a Bay Run PB, and then promptly regretted it as soon as my endorphin levels dropped again. Being a “big girl” I’ve always felt like the ugly duckling at these things. I’m not one of those women who carries extra weight with style and class. I look like a big fat blob. Correction, a short fat blob. Needless to say my blobbishness, lack of any clothing style and complete absence of confidence doesn’t exactly have the guys lining up to ask me out. So with the singles function looming the stress of what to wear was in full force. “Cocktail” seems to mean short and sleeveless and skin-tight to the fashion world. As gorgeous as those dresses look on the size 8 models, I didn’t think them appropriate for me, especially in the middle of winter. (side note WOW do I feel the cold without my 20kgs of insulation!). Thank goodness for online shopping and fabulous friends who are happy enough to have you send them tons of links to possibilities. I eventually found something suitable and the tailor quickly altered it to make it more suitable for the vertically challenged.  My lovely hairdresser was able to squeeze me in for a wash and blow dry (I can never get my hair looking as good as she can), and because she could only do it late, I walked in dressed for the event. She hasn’t seen me for a few months and was gobsmacked at the change 🙂 Definitely gave me a boost before the event. The result was I attended the event feeling more confident than I have in years.

Dressed up for singles cocktail event

I didn’t have any luck with meeting a guy that night, but as it was the first time I’ve put myself out there in over 3 years I’m feeling good about it. Some of the girls I train with had asked me to show photos of me dressed for the event (they’ve only ever seen me in workout gear sweaty and red-faced) so I posted this pic in the Facebook group. Great ego boost. Some of the newer members wanted to know how far I’d come so I hunted around for a “before” shot. (Note to those starting out on your journey – do before shots in clothes as well as underwear 😉 ) I found this photo from New Years Eve 2012:

NYE 2012. Looking horrendous

NYE 2012. Looking horrendous

Looking at that I’m really able to see how far I’ve come. I’ve still got a long way to go, but some days when I look at myself and can only see the fat it helps to look back at how far I’ve come. Never again will I look like the sad woman in this photo.

Whilst shopping for a dress for the cocktail party a friend convinced me to try on some dresses from Leona Edmiston. I thought she was crazy. I’m too big for designer clothes! Apparently not though. HELLO LEONA SIZE 4!!!! I ended up buying a dress I absolutely LOVE to wear for my 40th birthday. Not posting pics until the big day but all I will say is that dress makes me feel FANTASTIC!

To go with the dress I wanted knee-high boots. A couple of years ago I had some custom-made (standard boots going nowhere near fitting my little feet and humongous calves. I pulled those boots out to try on with the dress and this is the result:

yep thats my arm in the boot with my leg

yep that’s my arm in the boot with my leg

So the hunt for new boots began. Unfortunately even though I’ve lost 7cm off my calves, I’m still too big for most knee-high boots. 😦 being the wrong end of the season doesn’t help either. Today though I got a fabulous tip from a friend: compression. She suggested wrapping my legs in glad wrap to get the boots zipped up. I didn’t go that far, but after trying on a pair I’d bought online and being unable to zip them up, I threw on a pair of pantyhose and voila, with a bit of pulling and huffing and puffing I got them on! YIPPEE!! I wish I had known that earlier as I’m sure a few of the (cheaper and nicer) pairs I had tried on in store would have fit. Anyway I now have boots to wear with my gorgeous dress so am looking forward to turning 40 and showing off to my family and friends. Yep that’s right looking forward to turning 40! I had actually expected a possible nervous breakdown at reaching this “milestone” but I’m feeling so good about where my life is at that I am looking forward to it.

Being sick has interfered with my training a bit, but prior to that my running has been going from strength to strength. My PB for the Bay is now down to 50:14! I think I’ll be able to get that under 50 minutes soon 🙂 On the down side though, I’m learning something about myself. When I am sick I want to eat crap. I am craving carbs and salt and chocolate. Maybe it’s because I’m home all day and bored. Too sick to do much not sick enough to sleep all the time. Maybe it’s because I can’t taste much other than sugar and salt. I don’t know but it’s not good. The ultra busy weekend meant I hadn’t had time to do the shopping let alone a cook up before the virus hit so there was nothing in easy reach in the freezer either. One of the 12WBT risottos would have been perfect but instead I had to settle for Lean Cuisine and let me tell you that is no comparison :(. Today I’m feeling a bit better so my mission is to get some good food organised and kick these crap cravings to the curb!

I want to make the most of the last week of the round!


4 thoughts on “Ups and downs and catching up

  1. Firstly: wow what an amazing dress! You looked stunning and the guys don’t know what they’re missing out on! What an amazing tranformation – you’re doing so well and it’s such an encouragement to see and watch and via your blog hear about the journey.

    I know that when I’m sick I often crave junk food as well. Maybe one day that will change? I really don’t know but I hope so 🙂

    • Thanks Tara. It was definitely a change for me to go out feeling good about how I looked. For the first time I didnt think I was the fattest, ugliest person in the room and didn’t deserve to be there. I’m actually starting to enjoy clothes!!!

  2. Your looking so great, I had to laugh at your comment about wearing fat well, I also wear it badly so I feel your pain!
    Great work on putting yourself out and about again and hopefully Mr right is not to far away

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