Getting back into the swing of things… slowly

Down 700g for this week. Better than last week. It did teach me not to do sneaky mid week weigh ins though.. I was down a whole kilo as of Sunday and did nothing “wrong” between then and today to warrant the increase of 300g.  700g for a week like this is good though. Nutrition is still not 100%. I think I hit the worst of it on the weekend though. Friday run club which I normally LOVE, I ended up in tears. We were doing hill runs which are never easy, but when you’ve filled your body with crap for weeks leading up to them they are downright horrendous. I’m a stubborn cow though, so I kept pushing myself. Could hardly breathe (to the point where people asked me if i was asthmatic), wanted to throw up but was so damned mad at myself I just kept pushing. The girls were amazing though. I truly am blessed to have so much support around me. Coach took me aside for a bit of a chat and kept checking in with me all day. Result: first crap free day all week.

Saturday I was determined to bang out a real super session. I did bootcamp in the morning as usual, then got the shopping done and headed out to Homebush to meet up with a friend to try and complete a 10km run. By the time we started it was 11am and Sydney had turned on an absolute pearler of a day. Bright blue skies and warm sunshine…. about 1km in I was cursing that sunshine. It felt HOT! No shade out there, but the lovely Kate had mapped out a nice flat route for my first 10km. I couldn’t let her down. It wasn’t fast (1hr 13min) and it defintely wasn’t pretty… and I fought with myself the whole way around but it got DONE! 10.3km non stop. A personal record for me. Thank goodness Kate accepts that i’m a little crazy and didnt freak out when I started yelling at my legs (body was doing that thing where it works a pain around the body… shin splints, stitch, shoulder pain etc which was fine, until it went back to shin splints and I dedided that doubling back was against the rules). Not did it phase her when i started chanting “I can do this” in time with our footfalls outloud to try and quiet the voice in my head that was telling me I was too fat/old/unfit etc to do this. I must say that that is the most negative my head has ever been during a run. It’s scary. Thankfully the out loud chanting and the support of my wonderful running partner got me through it. There was no runners high at the end of that run (at least not for me – Kate on the other hand was flying high after running way slower than she usually would so I could keep up) but I was really pleased that I won the mental battle and got it done. I followed it up on Monday with another 9km + run near home. Legs were aching and I didnt manage to run the steep hill after the stairs that time but I did run the rest and theres no shame in walking 120m up a 45′ gradient 8km in.  I did manage all 75 burpees and 150 lunges (75 each leg) at the end of the toning session last night so its no wonder my legs are dead today.

Food the rest of the week has been pretty good until today. I broke down and ate chocolate in spite of my pledge to stay off it completely for this week. No real reason just an “I want it” and couldn’t be bothered fighting the impulse for too long. Not going to beat myself up though. Tonight its off to Kimax and I’ll beat up the boxing bag instead. Also gives my legs a little bit of a break as I’m not going to do a run today (other than running around in class).

So the week isn’t perfect but it’s not that bad and the scales are still moving in the right direction. Hopefully things just keep getting better from here

Confession Time

I always knew today would be hard to control and I was right. I had no control sad I thought I had prepared myself well. I got up early and did 2.5 hours of exercise and burned just over 1000 calories. Good start. Came home and did another couple of hours of cleaning (vacuuming, washing etc) so sure I burned a few more cals there even though I didn’t count them. I was feeling good too as I put on a skirt that I havent been able to do up properly for years, and today it did up easily, with room to spare!

I ate a 12wbt breakfast and a light lunch. That was where I made my first mistake. Lunch was too light. It meant by the time we got started at the cooking class (5pm) I was ravenous. Added to that I had taken a bottle of wine (low cal but still) to share with my sister in law.

The first dish we made were curry puffs… made with full fat puff pastry. I had planned to eat 2 only, but we’d cooked so many and they were just sitting there in front of me and they were SO nice… I’m ashamed to say I ate 5! After that we made a Thai beef salad and even though I was full I had some of that too… and then there was main course – Stirfried Chicken with pumpkin and thai basil… WITH RICE! and I ate that too!

We were given the recipes, so i’ve just worked out the calories that I ate tonight. In the interests of honesty I will admit it here… I ate 1223 calories IN ONE MEAL! Bringing my total for the day to 1657. I’m ashamed of my lack of control (those curry puffs were 100 calories each!). I feel completely and utterly over full, stuffed, bloated and disgusting. What shames me even more is that I used to eat that way on a semi regular basis. No wonder I am fat!

Suffice to say I will probably get a crap result on the scales this week and I deserve it. I have no one to blame but myself and my own lack of personal control. I have a whole weekend ahead of me next weekend where I wont be able to control my food and I’m scared. I’m scared I will eat too much. I’m scared I wont have the self control to say no to alcohol and desserts. I’m scared I will have 2 weeks in a row of bad results on the scales.

I just hope that I can use this to motivate me to work extra hard this week and hopefully counteract the damage I’ve done today.

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First Official Day of the Program

Here it is, just after 9pm on the first day of the program. I’m utterly exhausted but oh so proud of myself. Today is one of those days that in the past would have led to me doing absolutely nothing exercise wise and eating crap. But the new me actually coped with everything and stuck to the program!

The day started with a 6.30 am start at work which required a 5am wakeup call – I gave myself an extra half hour as I hadn’t made lunch and snacks to take to work due to socialising etc over the weekend. Now some people would have gotten up at 4 or earlier in order to get the exercise bit done, but I’m sorry that is just NOT me! Plus as a large part of my job involves driving its very important that I get enough sleep (enough sleep is important for EVERYONE and I’m sure I read somewhere that there is some correlation with obesity and not enough sleep). So anyway I made the banana bruschetta which in all honesty I wasn’t looking forward (I’ve never been a fan of cottage cheese, and cheese with banana??? ewwwww) to but it was actually really nice! Not the easiest to eat in the car as I tried to do with the 2nd piece after realising I was running late, but delicious non the less.

While making lunch and snacks I realised I need to buy some more small containers for taking all my goodies! I only had a few that were small enough, and I discovered today they are not watertight (and that cottage cheese looses a lot of water when you take it out of the fridge!). They are the first items on next weeks shopping list for me smile

I finished work just in time to head to the sports podiatrist to see if I could get something done about this pain in my leg, (luckily the blisters now seem to be a thing of the past). This guy was great! He did a full bio mechanical assessment on me and I discovered I am overly flexible in my joints (eg my knees will bend the wrong way) and this is apparently not a good thing if you dont have the muscular ability to control the hyperflexing when fatigued. Hence when I slow to a walk after running my leg aches due to the tendon thing working overtime trying to keep my ankle in a neutral position. Let me tell you it was almost as good as a massage having him flex my feet, ankles and knees around too! I told him I’m doing this program and he seemed impressed that I am going about things the right way. He was also really happy that every question he had in regards to my health I knew the answer to, as well as what that answer meant. All this concentrating on those things has taught me more than I realised smile As I expected I’m in the wrong shoe. Apparently cross trainers are not good for all types of exercise (ok I was dumb thinking that when I bought them) and I would be better off in a running shoe… me… running shoes hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Plus I’m going to need an orthodic to help keep my foot/ankle in the right position while I strengthen the muscles tendons and ligaments that are supposed to hold it there. (I forgot to mention the hugely embarrassing balance tests he did on me where I couldnt stand on my left leg for more than a few seconds and when he asked me to do toe raises on that foot I almost fell over hehehe). It was fun getting a plaster cast made of my feet for the orthodics wink I’ve got some exercises to do for the next week or so while they are made up so hopefully the combination of exercises and the orthodics will mean I can run pain free soon!

By the time I finished there it was almost 6pm and I was feeling pretty weary. I’d decided to do the outdoor program though, and knowing there was a distinct possibility that I would collapse on the couch as soon as I got home, I’d actually gone to the podiatrist dressed for the workout with everything I needed in the car so I could stop off at an oval on the way home and get it done. I’d also arranged to meet another 12wbter there so I would feel even more obligated! My training buddy got mixed up with venues and didnt end up making it, but I didnt let myself use that as an excuse either. I just went down on to the oval and got on with it.

I’ve been doing the couch to 5k program for a couple of weeks, but always on the treadmill. As Mish had included a beginners run program in today’s workout, I decided to give the c25k a go on the oval. (I figured I’d do that instead of Mish’s one as I was already able to run more than 30 sec bursts consistently and didn’t want to lose the momentum I had gained on c25k). I’d picked the oval because its flat and I figured the ground would be softer and fairly even. I didn’t count on how much harder it is to run outside! Let me tell you those 3min runs on today’s program I wasn’t sure I could make it. It was a huge mental effort to force myself to keep going until it was time to walk. But I did it! There weren’t any hills near the oval so I used a low step and did 30sec step ups on each leg (as fast as I could) at the end of each lap of the oval, then did the rest of the program as per the instructions.

It was 7.30 by the time I got home, and let me tell you if I wasn’t doing this plan dinner would have been either home delivery or bread and cheese or something. I was just so tired! Luckily the Spanish chickpea recipe was quick and easy to prepare. By 8pm I was sitting down to a delicious, nutritious and downright filling dinner! I think I’m going to mark that one as a fav. I then got to have the second half of my frozen fruit yoghurt snack (if you havent tried that one do, it is YUM) which felt like a special dessert. Cleaned the kitchen and now sitting down sipping on a mug of peppermint tea and feeling very satisfied with today’s efforts. I’m sure I will sleep well tonight! Thankfully I dont have to work until a more civilised hour tomorrow so I’m going to allow myself to sleep in until 6.30 or 7 smile

I hope everyone else is feeling great. Below is a pic of tonight’s dinner before I added the fish. A feast for the eyes as well as the tastebuds smile

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